[ She's spent a lot of time pretending she's alright without it. God knows she's gotten used to it - going at it alone, feeding the physical need with something that doesn't breed any more connection than necessary.
But being home all those years ago - seeing her family, seeing Ollie again - it'd reminded her that even if the League had broken her down and rebuilt her, there was still humanity left that needed to be fed. That sought something beyond the violence and the blood.
She hesitates, struggling to push back the memories, the part of her she's been hiding since she'd joined Starfleet. The part of herself she's been trying to hide from him.
Brow furrowing, she lets out a breath against his lips, leaning her head into the cup of his palm and shutting her eyes tightly a moment. ]
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But being home all those years ago - seeing her family, seeing Ollie again - it'd reminded her that even if the League had broken her down and rebuilt her, there was still humanity left that needed to be fed. That sought something beyond the violence and the blood.
She hesitates, struggling to push back the memories, the part of her she's been hiding since she'd joined Starfleet. The part of herself she's been trying to hide from him.
Brow furrowing, she lets out a breath against his lips, leaning her head into the cup of his palm and shutting her eyes tightly a moment. ]